Thursday, November 29, 2007

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

distinction

again... but why do i not care? *shrugs*

there must be something that i don't see in people. i wonder why others can get along/love/become best friends with people i don't seem to.... well...... get along with. there must be something about me that do not give chances to others (i blame it on my upbringing from the father). my father bellieves that everyone must do things right the first time. if not, then its a screw up. well..... my parents are mostly why i do not want to become a parent myself. i'm afraid that i'll end up like them. poor children (poor me). so i'll try and be more aware of my actions and thoughts in the future and apply logical and effective methods so as not to turn into them. it'll take alot, being the very proud and egoistic person that i am (yes, i admit to that), but Insya'Allah, i'll try out of sincerity.

on the other note..... the christmas lights are simply gorgeous (of course, goerge st. and david jones' decorations were fabulous too)..... reminds me of milles..... i'd invite you over to stay with me so i can bring you around but i don't have my own crib. in fact, i don't allow my friends to come over anymore. mum thinks its a hassle to cover herself up and she feels unconfortable. so even when dad's unwell, they're not invited to see him. they can come at their own accord, just as long as i don't invite them and they don't tell me that they're coming. i hate staying under my parents' roof..... but beggars are no choosers. you live in another person's roof, you follow their rules. owners rules. *shrugs* well... if u're not willing to accomodate, why bother having children at all. might as well you use your hard-earned money to travel and live a luxe life rather than having us..... me especially. i know.

i'm pretty sure that you regretted not doing more drastic things at that time huh? knowing that, it makes it easier for me to leave yous. i'll do what God told me to do, no worries about that part but its due to my duties as a Muslim. i'm all numb inside.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 6:21 AM < +